number 2.

Kathryn Angelica Hinckley.
she is something else!
i always feel like a better person when i am with her. it all started 3rd yr at girls camp. we were bunk buddies and i gave her the nick name Kitty.
we really opened up to each other.
she is one of the most talented and most humble people i know.
She has been there for me so much.
From band camp to the night my uncle died to going to singles ward..
she is one day older than me.
She is the kind of person that because i know her, i want to be closer to God.
I can tell her anything and I know no one else will find out.
i can trust what she says, because she is one of the most honest people i know.
my senior year at Mesa High would not have been the same without her.
i love how random she is. and i love how she respects everyone around her.
she has some of the best taste of music. and we have so many fun adventures and memories.
i hope that Kathy will always be someone close to me.

she's INSPIRING. 

i love my kitty... 

number 1.

One of my first friends, My first Best friend. literally BEST.

Brianna Miller.
it all started by going to Caitlynn McGrath's Christmas party in 8th grade. We went off alone and ended up having the best conversation ive ever had. we were best friends from that moment on.  after the party we went to the stake dance and had some fun, naturally.
we had our tiff's and our differences. and we had fights. we "broke up" on occasion, but we always came back together. like magnets.

i honestly don't know how i would've survived jr high and high school without her.
i could call her and we'd talk for hours She always had the best advice, and helped me out of every situation.
she knew me better than anyone. she knew when i was faking a smile, she knew when i was lying, etc.

I have had some of my best times with her, We've gotten in SO much trouble together, but it made us that much closer.
She has changed my life... and i hope she is always in it. ALWAYS.
BFFNMWH
best.friends.forever.no.matter.what.happens.
:):):)

This is the end of Sophomore year at the school we wanted so badly to get away from

This is Bri, Me, and Lindsay on a Marine Preserve in Cali :) 

we got matching glasses in hollywood.

she's the coolest chick everrr!

dedicate.

i have come to the decision, that although no one reads these words i write, i am going to dedicate a post to each of my friends. and people that have made an impact on me.
starting with my next post.

peace, love, confused DAWL

Singles Ward

so today Kathy and I went to the singles ward in our stake. it was so weird!   today consisted of getting hit on and stalked and being told we had lovely voices from an old lady.... maybe next week we'll actually go to more than sacrament meeting! hahahaha
it was an adventure. i love that girl. i am going to miss her dearly.

Turn around

so, the date, wow! it was so incredible!
the guys took me and Brianna to a natural hot tub in the middle of nowhere in the desert! the water is naturally heated, drawn from a very underground well! it was very neat! :) then we went four wheeling on the dunes and earlier they had set up a bonfire, so after fourwheeling we ended at the bonfire and had stuff to roast marshmallows and stuff. thenw e got hit with a HUGE storm. so we got in the truck and watched the bonfire dance in the rain. it was cool. and we jammed out to music. which is always a plus.
then we went to circle K for hot chocolate.
then the couples each went their seperate ways. My date took me to the thatcher fields and we watched the storm from an underground dug out and stayed nice and dry. and.... he kinda gave me some hope that i wasn't stuck in the friend zone, so we'll see what happens :):)
    
     My trip this week was fun. and i needed to be up there. it helped me get over alot of things.
I strengthened so many relationships that needed the strengthening.

I move out in 16 days... CRAZY!

and last night i played some pool. and met this wayyyy cute guy! and we hit it off :) and welll i discovered i really suck at pool now... hahahahah  i need to practice!
anyways, today i am going to do some more packing, hit up the singles ward, and go to a BBQ.
well.. thats all for now :)

blog post.

so, the title says it all, once again.  this is a blog post!
currently, i am in thatcher. i came to see a friend that just got back from georgia, and to sort out some college stuff and make sure everything is in order because in 2.5 weeks this city slicker is gunna become a small town let down :) hehehehe (inside joke)
anyways, for some odd reason (really, its odd) my layout was completely erased.  and so, me, being the busiest energizer bunny that i am, did not have time to redo it all and find something that fit my personality PERFECTLY or anything like that, but i needed SOMETHING! so this will have to do.
so tonight i am supposedly going on a date. with a guy that is not interested in me. with a guy that i want to make mine. i thought my last post was torture... but this is torture on a whole new level!
I'm stuck in the 'friend' zone. and that's a horrible feeling.
trying to play it cool. trying not to cry. trying not to seem any weirder than i already am.
ahhhhh oh wellll! life goes one.
i went into the college office today to get stuff sorted out. and WOOOOWWW! :) cute guy freaking overload!
and my excitement level for college just flew through the roooof! i am beyond excited. mainly to find a husband and then get married! or just focus on school and my career. we'll see :)
well my date is here. so i guess this is it for me!

TORTURE!

AH!
so, i'm sitting in the airport terminal waiting about and hour for my flight i had already called each of my friends and had lenghty convos, read a magazine in the tourist shop and gotten a bite to eat. but i still found myself with an hr left to wait with nothing else to do.
so i people watched. and dang there are some cute guys in airports! and one came and sat next me. he was from orange county and his dad is a famous country singer. his name was johnny. and we had an amazing convo about music and life and everything ! I couldn't stop thinking about him and it's totally not fair cuz i have no way to ever see him again!
then tonight i am at bed bath and beyond getting some stuff for my dorm and this amzingly gorgeous guy helps pick out some stuff and was like  a personal shopping assistant. it was amazing. his name was D.J. but i prolly wont ever see him again either. i hate having these moments just to think about.
it stinks!
then the one person you really do love, doesnt love you.
what's this love things anyways?