some thoughts

So last night, I felt the spirit so strong.  I read through a conference talk, my patriarchal blessing, my scriptures, listened to church music, and It was just incredible.  I stayed up all night organizing and unpacking the rest of my stuff.  I didn’t finish til around 1:30AM so I thought it was odd that I was getting a text message.  I checked it and it was so mean and rude! There were a few rude text messages from this person that were just completely unnecessary.  I ended up not being able to sleep and luckily my brothers were up so I hung out with them and texted my boyfriend to let him know I wanted to hear from him when he woke up.  As soon as my phone flashed red I was so happy just from that.  We talked about it and he made me feel so much better.  I don’t know how I got lucky enough to have someone like him.  He is so sweet and I just can’t even describe how much I like him!

After he turned it around and made me happy, I was able to sleep.  But later that morning I went out to my car and he left me the cutest little thing.  He used sticky notes to make a smiley face and each sticky note had a quote on it. and they were exactly what I needed to hear.  I was just so happy and I don’t know what I did to deserve him but I am so glad I have him.

Then I got up to get ready for work and I had another text from my boss giving me the day off! Boy, did I need to hear that! So I got to relax and hang out with my siblings.

The Lord really does know us.  He knows what we need and he uses worthy people as instruments in his hands to deliver to us what we need.  I am so thankful for that, and for people listening to that little voice.  I am such a blessed girl and I am so thankful for this Gospel that I was raised in and for the relationship that I have with my Father in Heaven.

Everything happens for a reason, sometimes we just need a reminder!

I am happy. :)

So tonight, I got home from a friends house.  It was late... like 1:30 and my dad is up watching something.. with my sister who waited up for me.
My dad looks at me, and is just floored! he said, "The person you were just with makes you so happy.  I've never seen your countenance so bright and HAPPY!!"
and it's true, I am just plain and simply happy.
Sure, things go wrong, i get frustrated, plans change at the last minute, and not everything is perfect!  But circumstances aren't what decides whether or not you are happy.  YOU do.

Happiness is when what you think, what you feel, and what you do are all in Harmony.
and I am HAPPY!

On another note, some people just make you want to be a better person.  It's so strange to think someone has that affect on me... or that I have that affect on THEM.
But it's good.  It's definitely good.

I am going to breakfast tomorrow morning... I am HUNGRYYYY.  mmmmm,
goodnight <3

Loves,
Dez

I love being me!

So This last few weeks have had it's ups and downs just as life goes but I have had such an incredible time!

I've met many a new people and friends and have gone to multiple social gatherings that us young adults like to call parties, and gotten to know some people even more so in smaller groups.

I have had a blast.  I have made many friends and just really enjoyed spending my time with them.  :D

Work at LacyBella Designs has been good.  We are super swamped but that's a good thing, most of the time. It's just a little stressful trying to get caught up!  This next week we are going to be featured on Groupon and so we will get even more orders this next couple weeks of people redeeming their gift cards!
My boss is really cool, and very nice.  She is really flexible on my hours and such so i still get to have a life! I love it.    We always have "The Office" playing in the background too.  Nothing wrong with a little comedic relief!

anyways, so, Life is good. and I could complain, but what's the use?   I am pretty happy right now!

I just love being me!

Loves,
Dez <3

I got a job!

I recently landed a job with LacyBella Designs which is an online vinyl lettering company and it's practically the perfect job for me!  Hours are flexible and constant, weekly pay, and a chill work environment!  I get to make money, save for ASU, and have a life all at the same time!

I am loving my new singles ward.  gone a few fun dates already and am looking forward to meeting even more people the more that I get involved.  Everyone in my ward is really welcoming and I love it.

Finally have a car to drive and can afford insurance and today was my first day on the road.  It's a stick shift so it makes it that much more exciting for me!

Note to all you out there:  if you take the time to do something, don't do it half way.  If you're going to spend precious time on something, do the best you can.

Loves,
Dez

one year down!

I have successfully finished my first year of college! It was crazy! So many different ups and downs, but I leaned so much!
Just a few lessons that I have learned include:
-Never be roommates with your good friends.  you won't end up good friends at the end of the semester.
-paramedics arrive very quickly in a small town
-pizza delivery still takes forever in a small town
-you will do so much for a group or person and you will go unnoticed.
-you will fail at some things that you try but what matters is that you try!

Those are just a few lessons that I took away from spending the year at Eastern Arizona College.
Some of my highlights include:
-getting elected freshman rep for drama club
-getting nominated for homecoming queen
-working at the county fair
-moving into my first apartment
-getting the lead in the first play
-going horseback riding
-stargazing
-snowboarding for the first time
-KCACTF in La
-NCBC in Las Vegas
-getting my wisdom teeth out
-and LOTS more

I have made so many memories this year and I know that I will  make so much as long as i live my life!

check out a few of my pics from the year!

And many more that it won't let me upload! 

deleted Facebook

Most of you reading this, are reading it because you were directed to do so by my status.
Facebook is just too much of a distraction and it's a problem in our society.  As it is convenient to talk to more people, faster, it erases any personal relationship you have with people that you would have if you told them in a bit more of a personal way.  If that makes any sense.  
So i am currently a college Freshman at Eastern Arizona College, and I am double majoring in Theatre Arts and Journalistic communications.
Right now, is very very stressful and i'm just holding on by the skin of my teeth.

Thinking about joining the army... maybe the Army reserves... what are your guys thoughts on this?

I've written many songs lately.  SO now i have 3 finished guitar songs and 2 piano songs! I am so excited... I REALLY want to work on a demo!
Well, more to come later..
Love you all.
-dez

Things Change

Everything happens for a reason. At least, that's what I used to tell myself.
I have many times been called naive or gullible.  This is because I believe things for face value. If you say something, I figure you mean it.  If you do something, it's intentional. I believed that people wouldn't harm or do wrong to me. Well, I am very naive. People can and will do wrong to me. People will lie, cheat and steal to gain a personal advantage. People will break promises if they aren't convenient. People will say sorry to try to erase mistakes.
Boy, do I hate the words, "I'm sorry" if you are really sorry about something, use some common sense and don't do that thing to begin with.  Yes, I know that some things just happen and you don't know it hurts or offends someone, and in those cases sorry is a very appropriate word.  But if you do something that is so clearly not ok, that you know you need to hide.. don't go saying sorry when you get found out because you aren't sorry.

People don't say what they mean. People are more concerned with what is in it for themselves.

People are selfish beings.



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