Sunday, August 15, 2010

goodbyes

Today in Young Women's Brittany, Kathy, and I were asked to get up in front of the group and bear our testimonies. since it was there last day in the young womens program and it was my last sunday in the ward!   I was the last one to go, and although i am not a crier i was totally crying by the time it got to my turn. It was so sad to say goodbye to everyone that i have practically spent my whole life with.  After we were finished the 3 of us were in a receiving line for hugs. talk about hard!
Saying goodbye to familiarity is hard!
along with saying goodbye to friends and family i am saying goodbye to bad habits and quirks of mine. i think it is a perfect time to let go of things that i don't like about myself. I need to be someone that i love. because if i don't love myself then how can i expect someone else to love me?
and I can't always be around people or be doing something, i need to be ok with being alone with myself.
my mom told me that i can't run from myself. and that hit me hard because it is so true.
so i am saying goodbye to amazing things and some things i need to let go and leave here
 i believe this is the perfect time to change.
i can put those imperfections in a box and leave them in the back of my closet here in mesa and never think about them again. i can leave them here and move on.
its going to be good for me.
today was such an incredible day. The spirit was so strong and I absolutely love this gospel.
i cannot wait for the day that i marry the one that i love in the sacred, holy temple. i am so grateful for the faith that i have obtained in Christ. it has helped me through so many incredibly hard things!
today i think was the turning point in my life.... i am saddened that it took jumping in the deep end to realize what i am all about but i am glad i discovered it.

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