Just when I thought I had it all figured out, something is said that throws me completely off the scent, and now I don't know which direction to follow. I think I get confused all to often, but I blame it on my over analyzing personality.
I realize that there is nothing I can do about it, so I really shouldn't over think everything but as hard as I try not to, the more that I do, and then that Yankee's stadium in my stomach sinks deeper. That would explain my anxiety.
Sometimes, I just don't know what to think. I wish I didn't have to think sometimes, and when I don't have to, I wish I didn't.
This is a random post, It's probably not going to make any sense to most people. But my brain is kind of all over the place. But I've said it before, and I'll say it again and a million more times, I don't write for others, I write for ME. Because even though nothing changes by the words that I am typing, It eases my anxiety. I'll try just about anything to do that.
I have realized that as long as I rely on the Savior and my Heavenly Father that whatever happens, is going to be what's best for me. Sometimes.... just sometimes, I wish it would work the way I want it too. But I learn a lot when it doesn't. Another point, I always learn from, well basically, everything. and I guess that's what is important. No matter what the consequences, you should always do what God tells you. I'm just going to do my absolute best to keep what really matters close to my heart... and If whatever the outcome is is something difficult... then I know I can lean on My Savior and he will support me... I am glad that I have this knowledge.
Come what May and Love it.