Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Auditions TONIGHT!

I have theatre auditions tonight after my student council meeting which is at 5 and my audition is at 630. it's open auditions so I think that's the most nerve-wracking part... other than that i believe that I am prepared...

Sunday, August 29, 2010

the pretty's... pt 2.

I hate pretty people. Honestly, i really do.
Those are my feelings tonight. I wish pretty people didn't exist.
the end. goodnight.

Friday, August 27, 2010


So, Tuesday is the day that can make or break me. It's open call theatre auditions. I am doing some monologues that I have performed before, but I definitely need to refresh my memory. tonight is the institute dance so i shall get going on it tomorrow and keep practicing. I know that i can do this. I can do anything that I set my mind to.
The key to success is wanting to be more successful than you are of being afraid to fail. I want this so bad. I am going to do my best. i don't care what anyone see's or judges of me. I am going to forget everything on that stage  and do what i want!

Natalie Maren Beolter

This post is dedicated to a girl that is absolutely amazing. She stays true to herself and her word and she is always always there for me. I know that she will keep things confidential if they need to be.
I also know that i can get pretty annoying sometimes and she just puts up with me. i have had so many amazing talks with her. She has made this week so amazing. I am so grateful we were placed across the hall from each other. She helps me through so much and makes me feel so much better.
I am glad that our paths have crossed once again and i know that it's not coincidence. I absolutely love her and do not know where i would be without her right now.

1 Week one down! a lot more to go

I have completed my first week of college and have survived. Drama has started between some roommates but it's personal issues that THEY need to get over themselves.
And well I made some new friends, a very "special" friend and think this semester will be quite enjoyable.
I have drama auditions on Tuesday Evening and am performing two very amazing monologues, the ones that got me my scholarship :)  
classes have been enjoyable, and the days have been incredibly busy. it's like highschool but unstrucutred and more responsibility. It is going to be very busy!
But I have some VERY VERY exciting and life-changing news!

I, Desirae Whetten, have been elected as the freshman representative for the Drama Department and I get to go to Thespian Conference and NEW YORK!!!!!!! I am so excited!

I wish you all the best in all that you take the time to do.

Monday, August 23, 2010

the gun is loaded and ready to fire

You can relate 'the gun' to school and homework is the bullet that is loading it. and ready to fire is my way of saying i finished and am prepared for the next class.
So my first class is at 9am. its Acting 101. The class seems nice, and there seem to be many neat people in there. We did some interesting activities with each other.
my second class is at 10 right down the hall, and That class i am having mixed feelings about.  I am sure it will be interesting and I will learn a lot of new things but the teacher is a little ditzy. She is the volleyball coach and my friends and I already haven't had very pleasant encounters with the team, so i don't know how i feel about that. The girls in that class seem kinda standoffish and it was intimidating.  One of the volleyball players is in that class too. But on the bright side there is a guy from Brazil in that class and he seemed really nice. hopefully i will make a friend in that class.
Following that class I have English 101. I met a girl named Tyler that I sat next to. My professor seems like a good teacher. His class is the one that I had homework in. I had to read 6 sections in a writing book, along with JFK's inaugural address and write a response on it. It took me near an hour but i completed it all. In that class there is also a guy from the military. I want to get to know him. That class seems pretty promising for me. I am excited for the semester to progress.
After English i have a 2 hour break. to eat lunch and get ready for my costume construction class. In my two hour break i had lunch and then had an interview for a job in the fine arts building as a tech. I will find out wednesday if I got the job or not. I am going to leave it in the Lords hands though. if he feels like i will benefit from it then i will get it but if i don't i know there is a good reason.
My costume construction class only has 3 others. 4 total. and we meet in our professors office. it shall be an interesting class. but I am excited to learn more about sewing and such.
Tonight we have family home evening at the Institute building, and after that we are having a movie night and ice cream for one of my roommates because today is her birthday!
tomorrow my first class is at 9:30.   I feel like i am doing good. i am going to succeed this year at so much.   I have student council meeting every tuesday night and wednesday i am running for an office in the drama club. My goal is to get the founders spirit award.  
Next tuesday are open auditions for the fall play. I need to get on that.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Going to school naked

No, I am not really going to go to school naked but I am not sure what to wear, and wearing the wrong outfit and making the wrong first impression is almost as bad as wearing nothing at all. They are both saying that "i don't care what i look like or what people think of me"
not the impression i need to be making.
My favorite pair of shoes, plaid vans, were left at home and i will not have them in my possession until possibly this next weekend. what am i supposed to wear this week?! i don't want to wear heels all week, but i guess i will make do with the shoes that I do have.
Anyways, My best friend, Danny-Boy, called me today and told me something really sweet. I knew i did good choosing him as my best friend. He's in Utah and even has a different time period. its weird.
school starts tomorrow morning. and man, i need laundry soap!

I got struck by lightening!!

ok, so the title is actually not true... just wanted to grab your attention! Tonight there was a crazy storm! so a bunch of girls from my community went out to a grass field outside our dorm and started dancing and then we recruited some guys to come dance with us and one brought a frisbee so then we played boys against girls keep away. Girls dominated, naturally. but it was so much fun! we played and goofed off for about an hour and a half. then after we got all cleaned up a couple girls came to my room and we got to know each other a bit more and had some nice girl talk :)  
Tomorrow is our first Sunday here. normally our ward is at 1 but tomorrow everyone is meeting at 10. We will see how it is :)
goodnight world!
remember that life is what you created it to be.
if you want to do something. get out there and do it! but always return with honor!

Friday, August 20, 2010

The Pretty's

College is filled with pretty people. I already feel out of place.
skipping out on the after-party tonight.
sleep tight.

college partyyyy

Tonight is the first college party! it is expected to have over 300 people! its a white out party! a bunch of us are going together and we are getting all decked out! its going to be awesome! i'll post all about it later!

I drove a Motorcycle!

So today My friend, Chuck, came up to visit me today. we took his motorcycle up to the mountain to take all the twists and turns. It was so much fun and so beautiful as well. so after that I decided I wanted to learn how to drive it so he taught me and I totally drove it! He told me that I was way good! I handled the clutch really well and even picked my feet off the ground and got some speed.  oh man oh man oh man! it was awesome!   My wanting a bike just increased by 50 :)

Thursday, August 19, 2010


My roommate just got here! she isn't actually here to stay until Sunday.
but i am gald i finally got to meet her! she seems really nice and cool and down to earth! I am so excited! :)

The College Life For Me

So the last two nights I have spent in a new bed, in a new house, in a new school,  in a new city, in a new county. It has been sort of a tad weird but kinda of exciting. my first night here, i went to the institute building and played pool, air hockey, and ping pong with some friends. Wednesday I took care of some stuff and hung out with friends. 4 of us had a movie night in my friends apartment and in between movies we went to Walmart for Pizza, Oreo's, and allergy meds. My allergies have been bothering me, alot!   we got our internet set up today, and i typed out a resume and having been sending it in hopes tog et a job! we had our first meal on campus and it was confusing but we got it!
we learned some life lessons from the football players sitting behind us, they said that the hardest part of school is going to class but "Dude! just do it!" and that its smart to make friends with another smart person so that they can help you when the teacher is unavailable. It was quite entertaining.
We are going to go find all of our classes today and introduce ourselves to our professors and get the in there.
We might be having another movie night or something tonight :)
tomorrow my friend is coming up with his motorcycle and we are going to spend the day on windy roads in the mountains.
School starts Monday!!
thanks for reading :)
hope u are enjoying your day!

Sunday, August 15, 2010


Today in Young Women's Brittany, Kathy, and I were asked to get up in front of the group and bear our testimonies. since it was there last day in the young womens program and it was my last sunday in the ward!   I was the last one to go, and although i am not a crier i was totally crying by the time it got to my turn. It was so sad to say goodbye to everyone that i have practically spent my whole life with.  After we were finished the 3 of us were in a receiving line for hugs. talk about hard!
Saying goodbye to familiarity is hard!
along with saying goodbye to friends and family i am saying goodbye to bad habits and quirks of mine. i think it is a perfect time to let go of things that i don't like about myself. I need to be someone that i love. because if i don't love myself then how can i expect someone else to love me?
and I can't always be around people or be doing something, i need to be ok with being alone with myself.
my mom told me that i can't run from myself. and that hit me hard because it is so true.
so i am saying goodbye to amazing things and some things i need to let go and leave here
 i believe this is the perfect time to change.
i can put those imperfections in a box and leave them in the back of my closet here in mesa and never think about them again. i can leave them here and move on.
its going to be good for me.
today was such an incredible day. The spirit was so strong and I absolutely love this gospel.
i cannot wait for the day that i marry the one that i love in the sacred, holy temple. i am so grateful for the faith that i have obtained in Christ. it has helped me through so many incredibly hard things!
today i think was the turning point in my life.... i am saddened that it took jumping in the deep end to realize what i am all about but i am glad i discovered it.


yesterday i had a million and one anxiety attacks. and i was feeling so miserable because of them. So, my friends decided to get me out of the house, well my one friend B, came and picked me up and we were gunna pick up our other friend but then K said she was on her way to get her. So B and I turned around and were driving home .We had a green light and were just going straight. about half way through the intersection the car waiting to turn left decided to go right in front of us. So B slammed on her breaks but the cars still collided. it was so scary. when we got ahold of ourselves we pulled over and the other car was long gone. we got out to look at the dammage... and WOW. the front end was crushed into the tire. it made a very weird noise on the way home... luckily neither one of us were hurt. but oh man it was scary. but all 4 of us had a nice night talking. i am going to miss things like that.

words i'll never say... but i'll type.

I'm sorry.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

I survived a plummit to my death

Yes, that is correct. i Jumped off of a cliff and survived. It was magical.
Of course, the ropes may have helped a little bit/.. but non the less it was sooo much fun!
i took 3 of some close friends that i have grown up with and my dad came as well.
One of the times that we went down we went together. a Daddy/Daughter jump. it was very enjoyable. i am so glad i have had this opportunity before i leave. i love my friends :) they are so random and funny.
no to do some packing and try to get more things in order! woot! :)
hope everyone out there is having a fabulous day! you guys deserve what you created!

I'm gunna jump off a cliff!

Literally! :) tomorrow morning i am going repelling with 3 of the closest people to me! I've known these kids since i was like young enough to remember. I am so excited! we are going with my dad and his friend who are driving us and providing the equipment and safety for us!
so that is from 5am to 9 am. 4 hours :)
then packing and maybe a power nap and calling some people in thatcher about a job.
at 3pm i am going horseback riding with another friend.
Then at 6 Kathy and I have home teachers coming from the singles ward. and then we have our VERY LAST mutual.... and my very last activity with this ward.  i have 5 days until i drop off the face of the earth.

Monday, August 9, 2010

dear heart....

Dear Heart,
i know you are a bodily organ... and i very much need you for functional purposes, and im very very sorry for the scrapes and bruises i have allowed to happen to you.
so i thought i wold warn you right now.....

I met a boy. Prepare to be crushed.

Your host body!

T minus 8 days!

The week countdown starts tomorrow.
i can't believe in a week i will be gone.
I am so excited.
My soul sista, Em is moving across the street from the where I will be staying and we talked last night for almost 3 hrs. It was amazing. i am so glad i will have that support there for me. I am excited to start moving in and decoration my dorm. it'll be nice.
I need to find my ipod... i don't know where to start looking,... i reallllyyyy hope i find it!

I am so grateful for everything that i have.
yesterday, I went to both the family ward and the singles ward. and i was so spiritually uplifted. I felt absolutely amazing.

thursday i am going repelling!!!!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

i flipped off the wrong person...

i currently have a broken finger... HA! and its my middle finger. its crazy,
im not sure how it happened. but i got myself some crazy painkillers for it :)
yesterday i went to lunch with Layla and Christian and then went to work. then i went to Urgent care where my finger was taken care of.
today my friend Kevin came to church with me. he isn't a member but i really like him. and he enjoyed church today! he even shared a personal experience in Sunday school about how he say God's hand in his life.
it was neat. he might be coming to church next week too. but thats my last week in town. but we are going to stay in touch and hopefully see eachother often :)
Kathy and I are going Repelling Thursday :) wooot!
and this friday is fri the 13th!!!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Let's just breathe

Lets sit back and look a tlife. lets enjoy if for what it is. ir's a gift. a non returnable gift.
it's like a wooden block. its up to us what we want to make out of it. what we expect from it.
if we live it sitting there we can't appreciate the beauty that is there. we won't discover the magic that it holds. the excitement of creating a new shape.
life is that block. we need to create it based on what we wan it to be. the choice is completely ours.
release it's divinity.
show it off in the window sill.
don't avoid it. it'll always be hat block if you don't do something with it.
make it into a vase, make it a stepping stool. somthing practical.
make it a bracelet and stud it with diamonds. make it something you've always wanted.
bt you need a knife. you'll need some experience, you'll need some funds and maybe soeone to overlook your project to make sure ur doing it right and not missing something. . but with just a little of each you can make that block something you want to keep forever. something you smile about just thinking that you created it.
so get started.
just breathe. and enjoy life for what you created it to be.

Number 6.

Gailynn Richardson.
it all stated in our sewing class our junior year.  we kinda just hit it off. ariel was with us too. we'd all 3 always get in touble for talking alot.
we managed to pass the class even with the teacher hating us cuz we always worked on our own projects instead of the assigned one.
we hung out alot after that. we hung out over spring break nd were broke so just had chips and salsa at mi amigo's.
we stole Nathan's truck and were so glad we didn't crash it!
when a horrible misfortune happened at gradnight she didn't leave my side. she looked out for me.
we had our girls night at ariel's house, and she had a little "incident" on the roof.
we always laughed alot together. she was so sweet.
then we both dated guys that were friends with eachother so we got to do double dates :)
she is such an incredible girl!
she's been through alot but she is one of the happiest and strongest girls i know.
i really admire her.
:) this was our last day as juniors!
Our FIRST 'senior' pic!
climbing ariels roof! yes!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Number 5.

Emily Ruth Moss.
every october she had her slumber party. we would always depants eachother.
we'd do hypnotism. and eat lots of junk foods.
we went to achievement days together.  we both were in love with jesse chapman and grant rodriguez.
then she moved.
then we grew up.
then we were both at the college preview day for EA and ran into eachother
we ditched the tour and our parents and went on a date with these guys :) then we talked and talked and talked and flirted with guys and talked and talked
then when i got my car i took a trip to tuscon where she currently lives and we had so much fun!
we stayed up SO late playing dress up and talking and watching movies and eating junk food.
we went on a date and had fun messing with a waiter without our dates noticing.
I call her when i am happy, sad, frustrated and she helps me thru it.
we talk for hours on end.
we will be living across the street from eacother in a week and a half.
we are both crazy boy crazy.
we have the same life philosophy.
if ur wondering, ask. if ur bored, get up and do something.
if you want something, get it.
college is going to be so much easier with her!
and we both have a thing for guys that sing... these two were in the musical we went to see

number 4.

Lauren Brie Hofeling.
BEST friends since 7th grade.
it all started with MRs. Call's math class first hour on the first day of school, she had something i liked so i asked where she got it. Target.
we had our whole schedule together practically and in every class i would ask her where she got something and it was always target.
i don't think i would've survived mrs. reid that first year if it wasn't for her.
we did our "research" for mrs shepherds very first assigned essay and actually ran into her at the mall!
we had so many laughs together.
she was always very picky with who i dated, always wanted them to be good enough for me.
so even after she moved a million miles away, i always thought if she would approve or not.
we are like sisters.
we are pretty opposite in alot. but the same on alot too!
she always kept me pretty grounded and hated drama. she was supportive but would tell me when i was wrong. we always liked to same guys... ha ha and had codes for EVERYTHING.
hahahahahahah nobod would get them but us.
we would tape pennies to posters, and talk all thru math lab.
we would ditch the first half of seminary and get jack in the box.
we'd make fun of sweaty boy.
the first time i went to her house, my cheek was numb so i had a crooked smile. it was funny. we studied "chemistry" and made videos on avril and hillary.
she really was a best friend. and i am so glad she has been part of my life. teen years wouldn't have been survivable without this girl!
not our poster... hahahaha

seeing eclipse 4 hours before it came out. 

numero Tres

Kayla Bailey.
Oh my. where do i start?
Drama class. She was in stage left and i was in centerstage.
she was in a play called Tarzan and i was assigned to help them clean it and perfect it before the performance :)
i thought she was a super chill person.
then she transferred into my drama class the next semester. and we weren't friends til i my bf and I broke up and we were getting back at him... hahaha
we started talking about our different boy problems and then started texting and stuff. She was really there for me. and we had so much fun! i was in her play that she wrote, playing her. and we went on double dates together. and id get in the car screaming
"roll the windows up!"
*windows roll up
Our drinks at Red robin, our late night drives, our boy problems,her moon roof, our matching cars, our love for music, our band, our writing. We have had way too many good times to forget.
i am going to miss her like crazy. she is my Deuce :) hahahaha

Red robin! 

her with her award of best director for organized Chaos.
me with my award, for best supporting actress. 
She is someone i try to model my life after.

number 2.

Kathryn Angelica Hinckley.
she is something else!
i always feel like a better person when i am with her. it all started 3rd yr at girls camp. we were bunk buddies and i gave her the nick name Kitty.
we really opened up to each other.
she is one of the most talented and most humble people i know.
She has been there for me so much.
From band camp to the night my uncle died to going to singles ward..
she is one day older than me.
She is the kind of person that because i know her, i want to be closer to God.
I can tell her anything and I know no one else will find out.
i can trust what she says, because she is one of the most honest people i know.
my senior year at Mesa High would not have been the same without her.
i love how random she is. and i love how she respects everyone around her.
she has some of the best taste of music. and we have so many fun adventures and memories.
i hope that Kathy will always be someone close to me.

i love my kitty... 

number 1.

One of my first friends, My first Best friend. literally BEST.

Brianna Miller.
it all started by going to Caitlynn McGrath's Christmas party in 8th grade. We went off alone and ended up having the best conversation ive ever had. we were best friends from that moment on.  after the party we went to the stake dance and had some fun, naturally.
we had our tiff's and our differences. and we had fights. we "broke up" on occasion, but we always came back together. like magnets.

i honestly don't know how i would've survived jr high and high school without her.
i could call her and we'd talk for hours She always had the best advice, and helped me out of every situation.
she knew me better than anyone. she knew when i was faking a smile, she knew when i was lying, etc.

I have had some of my best times with her, We've gotten in SO much trouble together, but it made us that much closer.
She has changed my life... and i hope she is always in it. ALWAYS.
This is the end of Sophomore year at the school we wanted so badly to get away from
This is Bri, Me, and Lindsay on a Marine Preserve in Cali :) 
we got matching glasses in hollywood.
she's the coolest chick everrr!


i have come to the decision, that although no one reads these words i write, i am going to dedicate a post to each of my friends. and people that have made an impact on me.
starting with my next post.

peace, love, confused DAWL

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Singles Ward

so today Kathy and I went to the singles ward in our stake. it was so weird!   today consisted of getting hit on and stalked and being told we had lovely voices from an old lady.... maybe next week we'll actually go to more than sacrament meeting! hahahaha
it was an adventure. i love that girl. i am going to miss her dearly.

Turn around

so, the date, wow! it was so incredible!
the guys took me and Brianna to a natural hot tub in the middle of nowhere in the desert! the water is naturally heated, drawn from a very underground well! it was very neat! :) then we went four wheeling on the dunes and earlier they had set up a bonfire, so after fourwheeling we ended at the bonfire and had stuff to roast marshmallows and stuff. thenw e got hit with a HUGE storm. so we got in the truck and watched the bonfire dance in the rain. it was cool. and we jammed out to music. which is always a plus.
then we went to circle K for hot chocolate.
then the couples each went their seperate ways. My date took me to the thatcher fields and we watched the storm from an underground dug out and stayed nice and dry. and.... he kinda gave me some hope that i wasn't stuck in the friend zone, so we'll see what happens :):)
     My trip this week was fun. and i needed to be up there. it helped me get over alot of things.
I strengthened so many relationships that needed the strengthening.

I move out in 16 days... CRAZY!

and last night i played some pool. and met this wayyyy cute guy! and we hit it off :) and welll i discovered i really suck at pool now... hahahahah  i need to practice!
anyways, today i am going to do some more packing, hit up the singles ward, and go to a BBQ.
well.. thats all for now :)